Friday, September 12, 2008
Title of my lifestory:
When i feel lost, cold, unwanted...
They told mi i was stupid, i didn’t believe. I’ve always put ‘frens’ after family & its even more impt den any relationship. After so mani times of disappointment i yet still not change. Becuase i wanna believe in wad i believe in. But now, i’m tired, dun wanna continue convincing myself and choose to understood that ‘Frens’ just come and go no matter how close u all were, sadly they will still ended up so once upon a time. Last night i pray in tears. I complaint to god, askin him why made mi care so much fer ‘frens’ to de extend tat i cud and wud do ani thin i can fer em. I told god, why didn’t u make mi blind, deaf, mute so i wun noe wad’s goin on in tis world and so i wun feel any sadness. So now i’ll only tok to u all if u all tok to mi, only find u all if u all wanted mi to no matter hu izzit. Tying to stay away from all possible sadness and disappointment.
When u are at de point where i feel tat i wun want to treasure u ani more if i can forget u den let mi tell u, u are no longer moi good fren.
Its not tat i dun have best friends. Best friends are wad i called em but i might not be their best friends right hu knows? So hu’s willing to be my best friend when silent is all we need? Maybe none?
Its not tat i dun have best friends. Best friends are wad i called em but i might not be their best friends right hu knows? So hu’s willing to be my best friend when silent is all we need? Maybe none?
Argh puffy & swollen eyes agains. i hate my eyes cos all they produce are tears & de next day it'll be all red & puffy.
Lesson was sooo boring. was lyk web cam-ing wif G & carmen lols.
i keep pretending to look bored den snap snap snap their pics hahas!
When we get too bored in class tis happens...
Ah 3rd meetin was equally borin. faci almost fell alsp den i & sarah started to ze-lian a bit hahas.
lyk i expected, e36g not mittin up fer breaks lers guess everyone moved on alrd. Glad fer em.
Well felt weak cos i onli ate one waffle & one bottle of menerial water fer de whole day. i'm still feelin so weak even after i eat.
Weak & tired are all i feel tis few days...argh i'm such a weaklin & i hate it goshness...
* i need a rest,away from de world...
i need nobody.
12:36 PM?
