♥Dandan 大小姐

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Title of my lifestory: outside always look fine-er than the inside

Feeling lousy lousy lousy. maybe due to de things tat happened recently.
before i knew, 'doubtful', 'uneasiness', 'insecurity', 'emptiness' has alrd crept in
it made me thought lots & lots,
Will everything be alright?

Have things started to change?

Was it me tat have not done good enough?
Wad should i do?
thoughts like these kept running through my mind and to continue acting as normal, its a torture.
i assured and reassured me over and over again telling myself everything would be alright but wud it be?
when i needed someone i wouldnt find any, when i needed assureance you didnt clear my doubts.
not sure of wad to do next, feels like i'm at my wits end... its scary.

*i'll be fine. because i'm strong?

9:50 PM?